P/s. I love you.

Day out with my girl ^-^

Day out with my girl on her birthday ^-^

How sweet she is feeding me! HAHAHA

This girl of mine, spent her birthday with me. She's officially announced 15 on 21st Nov. ^-^ ( YAY )
Didn't get to buy a cake for her, but I promise I'd make up for it one day.
Dear girl, you're 15. A year older than me. Sort out your mind soon, take a break if you need. I'd be here. Don't know why but, no matter how far we are, we'll still be comforting each other, whenever either one of us needs someone, we'd be there for each other pouring out our sorrows. I love her for she always tells me encouraging words and sometimes give me a brainwash and a calm heart to sort out thinkings. Let me feel less afraid of what's gonna happen next. Okayzxcs, I think I'll stop this mushy mushy talk here! He he.
Love. Will update soon with pictures taken on my birthday!
I'm 14! Ho ho ho. Finally. Good night readers.

All the things you never knew

Such a fucked up day today. Regarding the job was a total mess. Ended up so called negotiating with the boss to get our pay, I was on the verge to shout at him. He seem like an idiot. I swear. Those girls that went today can vouch for it. And again came home, got my day more fucked up. Quarreled with my mum. Don't wish to elaborate anymore. And after that, I calm down after hours. Went to my girl's house, had pizza and sleep. Chilled out already. Grandma continued those topic about the stuffs that happened today. Talking to me about my mum and stuffs. But the problem is, if you guys are not around when the situation why not keep mum. Because you don't understand the whole situation yet you start commenting on it. It's not that it's wrong. But it's inappropriate. Than what for you've to be so sarcastic ? Asking me " Mum and sist is going out later on together, you tagging along? " I said no yet must you still say " even you wanna go they also don't wish that you'll go along. " How much more fucked up. Thanks for everything really, I thought family would be the closest bond we'd have in this life, I THOUGHT. I thought that they'll be the one helping you out with problems, yet what I experience wasn't this. I THOUGHT again. Forget it. You guys will never understand.

我也不想这样..

Genting Trip pictures. For more, go to my facebook. ^-^

Recently, life's been disastrous for me. One word can define my life now, " sucks "

Enjoyed my trip to genting a lot, I've enjoyed myself, because somehow it brought my attention from my disastrous life to only fun. I know it's only running away from reality. Somehow I got my break, but after coming back, I've to still face this life of mine. Yesterday was totally fucked up. I don't love him, but the memories just haunts me for a sec. But i'm gonna be fine, it's been so long after all. 哭过就算了.

Now, I'm so afraid to love others. Tired and scare after all I've been through. I can't sort out my thoughts really that well, it's just a piece of mess. Undone, yet I'm mentally worn out to sort it out. Crying helps a lot, I want to do so.. ): 你知道我不是故意的吗？体谅我好吗? 我很自私, 也没想到你体谅我, 那谁来体谅你呢, 算了吧. 等我心情平静一点. Don't be mistaken for I don't love him any longer. Sigh, I'm off from here for now.

P/s. I love you.

3 more hours, and i'll be on the way to Genting! (Y) Miss me people, Will be back in 3 days. 8 hour bus ride, gonna make me bored ): Nobody's gonna entertain me there. My sweet lil girl, send me sucha sweet message, I think I gonna get diabetes soon! Hehe, Love Little Michelle. She's always there to perk me up aye! Alright, see you people, Millions of love to my dears. (:

A million words would not bring you back, I know because I've tried, neither would a million tears, I know I've cried.

I'm disappointed at the fact that I thought she was wise enough to think. Does she even know anything, did she get the fact right before confronting me? And hit those fucking words on my face, which was fucking harsh. Or maybe, DID IT EVEN BOTHER YOU THE FACT THAT IT WAS FUCKING WRONG. Shitz, you just ruined my day. Don't bother any longer, just gonna get me more fiery.

2 more days to genting, I wanna enjoy. God give me a break free from all this shit that is going on, God bless that it'll be save and smooth. 

20

对不起, 伤害了你. } If only tears could speak on my behalf.

I did enjoy yesterday, but I thought over. It's a grave mistake I made, I lead you to the wrong conclusion. Because I couldn't sort out my mind clearly before. That's why I've been hesitating so much. But I. I don't know how to put it in words. I need some time to get over things, sort out things, till then, I can only say sorry.
我很想哭，但我知道该哭的人不是我，是我给别人造成的误会。我不要再错下去, 我觉得跟你坦白也是个好事, 望了我吧 我不配，你也不却吧。。。嗯， 想说谢谢你， 带给我了笑容。^-^

I tried, I really tried. Goodnight readers.
爱。

可以见你一面吗?

I can't give up just like this. It's been so long. But I just realise it. It's been so far, but if you're not determined you won't go far. I need to be brave!

 It's 3: 27am. I can't possibly go on like this. I'm gonna be an owl, if I continue doing so.
18 more days to my birthday.. How am I gonna celebrate? 我觉得没有哪个必要去庆祝了. I think it's already meaningless. I just wish to celebrate with my girl and yeah. Just chill one corner. I don't request for more. I think I wouldn't have the mood to celebrate. It's just a normal day isn't it. Who cares (: I thought over some stuffs yesterday when I was lying on my bed. It's depressing. 我不要说下去了,  睡觉吧! 晚安!

Misses

我睡不着啊! Help me ): I'm lacking of sleep. My dark eye circles are getting deeper. Like fuckmylife. I need a job badly. I've to kill time and work, earn my money and play! I need some activities on. Anyone can intro job please.

I miss them, how we use to be, now, we're just hi bye mates.
Once upon a time, I met these awesome people, which lit up my life, made it wonderful and suddenly, the light was blown of in a blue moon. WHY? I'm often being cheerful, but at points of time, it's really tiring to hang on like that keeping it to myself. I rather suffer myself than burden others. My wish to be back together. Who shall grant it? I always think, why have it come to this. Are you guys even bothered by the fact, I can see no. I thought friendship wasn't suppose to be like that. Deceiving, lies, thats all I can see.
She came to me, she asked me why have it became like this. I was glad she knew it. And the others, they don't give it a damn. I was speechless when she asked me that. She told me that, which I already knew, but I rather keep mum. Only for one reason, their happiness. We can't forbid them for heading to the path they always wanted. We can't forbid them for searching for their happiness. We can't forbid them for who they choose. We can't stop them from being hurt because they rather trust them. Though we cared, we're afraid of them getting hurt, but what can we do? I rather let things stay the way it is, than to worsen it. Neither would I want to see we falling apart. Or maybe we already did. My mind is just filled with questions. Deceptions. Nothing else. This post is filled with words. Unspoken words.
Bye.

Stay tune..

Disappointed.

It's 5:25am and i'm here posting blog.
Yeah, I've moved to here http://p-siloveyou.blogspot.com.
Remember to link (:

Life's been a bitch for me. Nothing is really going well. Yes, i need a break from myself. I've the most awesome girls. They are all the best. But somehow, we're drifting. Even I'm fucked up with the fact that I've not had my own room, since last 2 years. Because my grand parents have moved in. This is life, things bound to go the wrong way, It's telling us, NOT TO ACCEPT THE FACT, BUT WORK TOWARDS YOUR GOAL.
That's my perspective. I can't sleep, this is making me so sleepy. And I've tried to make myself tired for 5 hours. Yet I've not sleep till this point of time. I should get some sleep! Or else I'll spend my next morning sleeping through the day. Anyway! http://www.camqueenoftheyear.com/profile.php?id=1631 Support please (:

P/s. 爱了那么久, 但却没发却到我一直都对你有一丝丝的感觉. 我知道是没有结果的, 但我无法避开你. God knows what if one day I'll see you outside, be my destiny.

对于那个5分钟热度的人, 我想说 : 我很失望!