Misses

我睡不着啊! Help me ): I'm lacking of sleep. My dark eye circles are getting deeper. Like fuckmylife. I need a job badly. I've to kill time and work, earn my money and play! I need some activities on. Anyone can intro job please.

I miss them, how we use to be, now, we're just hi bye mates.
Once upon a time, I met these awesome people, which lit up my life, made it wonderful and suddenly, the light was blown of in a blue moon. WHY? I'm often being cheerful, but at points of time, it's really tiring to hang on like that keeping it to myself. I rather suffer myself than burden others. My wish to be back together. Who shall grant it? I always think, why have it come to this. Are you guys even bothered by the fact, I can see no. I thought friendship wasn't suppose to be like that. Deceiving, lies, thats all I can see.
She came to me, she asked me why have it became like this. I was glad she knew it. And the others, they don't give it a damn. I was speechless when she asked me that. She told me that, which I already knew, but I rather keep mum. Only for one reason, their happiness. We can't forbid them for heading to the path they always wanted. We can't forbid them for searching for their happiness. We can't forbid them for who they choose. We can't stop them from being hurt because they rather trust them. Though we cared, we're afraid of them getting hurt, but what can we do? I rather let things stay the way it is, than to worsen it. Neither would I want to see we falling apart. Or maybe we already did. My mind is just filled with questions. Deceptions. Nothing else. This post is filled with words. Unspoken words.
Bye.

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